Springtime

Ah, Spring!
The rebirth of everything.

Birds chirp and dance,
Flowers bud and bloom.

Citrus is on the wind,
It permeates the room.

Invite the breezes,
Renew stale spaces.

Bask in the sun,
Absorb nature's graces.

CHASE OR BE CHASED

Chasing happiness
Running blind
Oblivious to my footprints
The marks left behind

Losing my way
Laughter of trees
Tripping
Slipping

Scraping my knees

A hole in the ground
Falling
Plummeting down
A hard bottom
I look around

Darkness
Dampness
I'm down here!
Can anyone hear me?
Is someone there?

My breathing
My heartbeat
The rush in my ears

The ghosts
My demons
They draw ever near

They taunt me
They haunt me
I'm alone with my fear

Then and Now.

Reunited.
The memories come rushing back.
Sitting, reminiscing in the rain.
Wet footprints and broken flowerpots,
Music to compliment the half moon.
Laughter.

I remember the time.
He was a gift to us all,
Your recollections keep him alive.
He loved you as you did him.

So many changes,
After all these years.
You're grown up now.
My young friend,
My sidekick.
Not forgotten.

Lost and Found

Searching frantically.
Frustrated, defeated.
Where is it?
I thought I just saw it.

Lifting this, moving that.
Going in circles,
Looking in places
I already looked.

Insanity, fear.
What if I never find it?
What will I do?
It has to be here.

Others have it,
Why can't I?
I'll be okay,
Once it's mine.

Balance, identity.
Security, esteem.
I have to find
My self again.

Rainy Day

Dark days
And I search
The clouds
For a patch
Of light.

The air is
Oppressive,
I can't breathe.
Willing the feeling
To pass.

Too fearful
To venture out.
Listless.
Emotional.
Wishing the
Storms away.

Yearning to
Bathe
In the sunshine
Once again.

Answered Prayers

You were my partner, my teammate.
Ours was the perfect match. Loving you was so easy.
Life was good for a while, but things change.
One moment bliss, the next despair.
Disease consumed you, ripped you from my arms.
Before long, I became the tin can tied to your bumper,
You pegged the needle down the freeway,
Driving recklessly, blindly at breakneck speeds.
I prepared to follow you anywhere,
Weather any storm, no matter how threatening.
You knew not how you hurt me, building me up and
Breaking me down. Over and over again.
Glimmers of hope extinguished by broken promises.
I was afraid and distraught, I tried everything and could not save you.
I slowly died inside while I watched you hurt yourself.
I was helpless. I was terrified. I was angry.
When I thought I had reached my breaking point,
You found the way back to you, back to me.
My tearful prayers had been heard.
I thought I loved the man you were, I couldn't imagine loving you more,
But alas, my love for you knows no bounds.
From murky darkness you have risen.
Today you are more than I ever dreamed you could be.
You are my smile and my laughter, you are my happy day.

Dreams of reality

Dreams of yesterdays still leave me breathless.
I wake and wonder if you were really there,
Your presence all too real.

Taking you in with my gaze,
Still spins me.
Left dizzy in reflection,
I have to separate dream from reality.

Oh the colors that dance in your eyes,
I used to waltz there all day.
I saw them again today,
As if for the first time.

You still affect me,
Leave me wanting more.
Memories of you are bittersweet,
I see them for what they are.